Until I was in my mid-40’s, I believed I could control things in my life. I believed that if I did THIS, then THAT would happen. I believed that if I cared for someone with all-consuming love, then surely they felt the same way about me. I believed that my life was what it was … Continue reading Today and Probably Tomorrow
You know what I’m doing? I’m hiding from math. My apologies to my father and all the other wonderful mathematics teachers out there, but I hate math. It makes my brain hurt. I’m in the process of acquiring my state teaching certificate to return to work. I’m an English teacher. My only deficiencies when I … Continue reading Nemesis
You know how Facebook shows you memories from years gone by? I’ve been seeing some from a really shitty time in my life, and it’s impressing upon me how what you see on social media isn’t necessarily what you actually get. Or are living. Or are any semblance of whatsoever. The first set of pics … Continue reading Time-lapse
Sometimes, mostly when I’m exhausted, I start feeling sorry for myself. It’s not a very flattering admission to make, but it’s true. Lately, for a variety of reasons, I’ve been feeling worn out, irritated, and a little bit scared. This has led me to have some mini pity parties that I’ve (mostly) kept to myself. … Continue reading A Haircut Story
Have you ever felt judged for decisions you’re making in your life? My guess is your answer is yes. Most of us, at one point or another, feel like others are scrutinizing the choices we’re making and passing judgment on them. Hell, we might have even had someone tell us straight up we’re making bad … Continue reading Got Judgement?
I issued myself a challenge 30 days ago to publish something every day for a month on this blog. I almost did it! I think I missed about four days. Generally speaking, I feel like it was a good exercise for me, and I learned a few things. I don’t like using writing prompts. Of … Continue reading Day #30
One of the writing prompts I’ve come across is to make a list of regrets. I’ve started three different posts based on this prompt, and this is the fourth. I’ve been turning this one over and over in my mind for about 2 weeks. I’m almost 50 years old, so I could sit here and … Continue reading A List of Regrets
1. My family makes me happy. And by family, I mean ALL the people I choose to surround myself with. The people in my life and my relationships with them are what make every day a blessing. Yes, it sounds cliché, but that’s because it’s true. I love, love, love my people. 2. A long, … Continue reading A List of Things That Make You Happy
I can’t say I’ve ever seen a ghost, but I’m convinced that the house in which I currently live had a female spirit living in it when we moved in 17 years ago. Ooo-OOO-ooo boogity boogity! Seriously, though, she was here. There were pockets of cold air throughout the house. The lights would flicker and … Continue reading Have You Ever Seen a Ghost?
On Saturday mornings when I was a little kid, my mom would pop corn in our home popper, bag it up in a brown bag, and drop me off with a little money at the local movie theater with all the other kids in town. This was back in the day when, for probably fifty … Continue reading First Job